Diglossia Girl

silence slithers through the crowd
spreading, spreading fear and doubt
clouds cover all the sky
darkness, darkness coming nigh

thousands running, running
children screaming unheard cries
loud, louder piercing screams
no one hears nor do they care

Bang! silent yet again.

bodies lying on the ground
murk and mystery all around
motionless, the smell of death

a war inside but no one won
hopes were raised, but all was lost
where is the sense in battling yourself?

suicide, suicide, down at the speed of life
the clouds are gone
the sky is clear and he sun shines bright
no one even remembers you

The pain lingers in my chest
like a dagger's open wound--
unwilling to heal,
unwilling to bleed the venomous rust.

I desperately want to tell you my desires,
but instead, I keep them contained,
locked away deep inside,
like a letter in a coffin
buried in the ground.

The words inside my soul are never to be spoken,
never to be heard,
and never to be seen
by you, my loved one.

I'll keep them from you because I know you'll criticize,
deny,
tell me I don't quite understand.

Sugar coat another excuse for me, Dear.
Please, make it sweet and sincere.
Go ahead, shove the dagger in a little deeper.
Don't listen to a word I say--I'll take the pain.
Yes, I'll let it linger in my chest.

Just kiss me, Dear.
You'll never know I'm dying.